ALWAYS FOLLOW YOUR FIRST INSTINCT!

If there is a question in your head and you are wondering what it is that you should be doing, whether medication or something that has been building up inside of you and you feel the right thing to do, then for your own safety, and others, DO IT! 100% of the time we think back to why didn't I just do it, because the life you live - your life, is not known to anyone but yourself - Not your doctor, not your guardians or family members who try to point you in the right direction when you wake up the next day beating yourself up on what the right thing to do is. And it is more than often always what you chose not to do in the first place. 

My own life for instance is a perfect example of how to do what is right when you know that the circumstances may be horrible until you share your thoughts out loud with a listener and the  knowledge you had and didn't run with may affect the way you live. Falling down to the floor again and again after waking up out of bed feeling perfectly fine like any other person more normal then you is just not the way for any epileptic like myself live by. We must take advantage of the life that we have by not choosing to do the wrong things when we understand what we should have done, and yet didn't!

Some of us will get up, stand on our own two feet while checking for cuts and bruises, bumps and dents to our faces, foreheads, front and backs  in pain from accidents that we did not cause, but need to live with. We can thank God that when we do get up off of the floor, that we are still for One: In one piece and telling yourself and/or others that you will be okay and healed, but Secondly: That no one else was injured or hurt around you. The second is a much greater deal to myself and others that your loved ones stay behind you so that not one person, including yourself, will have problems to deal with later in life, praying to God that there will be a later in life, for yourself and the ones you care the most about. 

Back to today's point at hand though, is that I have started a new medication and was dictated to take the one extra dose the very next day. The night before when I had a little Halloween party with my three brothers and sister in law, everything went really well. But, more seriously was the thought that I had as the movies played in taking a new medication just one day ahead of schedule, which would have been no big deal to my neurologist if I had, and yet, I didn't. The next morning came along and I was tossed and turned, from left to right, back and forward again, when Michelle saw me fall forward, away from her, thinking that I had broken my nose, but once again I turned myself over, nothing broken as she had thought, but just battered a bit. Once I was seated in my bathroom chair I was so much more concerned about her than I. As she patched me up with band-aids on my right arm only with strains to my back and neck as usual - something that almost never goes away, I kept asking her the same question, that if she had gotten hurt at all. Thankfully she was not, as in past situations due to my more serious seizure effects. 

I later in the day told her, once I was feeling totally well again, that I wanted to start the new medication a day ahead of time, and she said "that if that the was the way that you felt, that you should always choose your first instinct, and possibly things like this would not have happened!" I couldn't  agree with her more about anything else going on in my life, especially the obvious. But, aside from the five medications that I have been taking, and still on as of today, the other was supposed to have interactions with just one, which no medical drug has ever given me problems before besides Topomax, that I was given at NYU back about 15 years which was stopped completely due to my weight loss of about 20 pounds in a week. 

 I have still been trying hard to level out each of the medications with my neurologist and his team at NYU Langone Medical Center. Everything has been difficult and rough, to say the least, and for my wife as well who has tried and tried her best for me and my condition. She has kept in touch with Josh Stanley through emails and phone calls ever since we met up with him here in New York last year as you may have read in my past entry which ties and pulls us into my next story of what has now almost fully become legal in NY, but not all states yet, from Colorado. Something quite special which seems so far to be showing positive signs - called Charlotte's Web! 

Stay Tuned for my next blog in November which is also National Epilepsy Month!